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References to the ones I remember…
Be happy being a passenger.
I had to use the dictionary app today. I usually don’t have to use it but who are we kidding here. I have nothing to hide. I probably use it more than I should. I looked up the word Introvert. I had heard it used and was curious of the true definition of the word. It sounds so strange. I guess it may be because I don’t use many words starting with the letter i. As a matter of fact, I’m trying to think of any words that I use on a regular bases that start with an i. That brought me to where I am. People see themselves sometimes of not being worthy of who God made them to be. Sometimes we question why we have to feel so useless. Sometimes life throws us curve balls along with the fast balls and knuckle balls. Are knuckle balls even thrown anymore? Good question. I don’t watch baseball. But back to the curve and back to the introvert. Do we say introvert as it is a bad thing? Do we say it as if God has punished you to be this shy … always questioning life person. My answer is, I don’t think so. I feel God makes each of us in his form while at the same time makes us each different. You turn towards yourself and blame your self for what you call your faults instead of looking at your accomplishments. Look what all you do to influence people. Everyday we are blessed to be able to show others Gods love for each other. Whether it be a smile to a stranger at a grocery store or holding a door for someone you don’t know with a slight head nod. Don’t think about yourself as being backward or not good enough. You want to blame that job problem on yourself. You want to worry about the future without living in the present? Don’t do it. Maybe the doors are closing and you have to look for another way out. There is always one there. Lean on God to help to find it. Appreciate the little things. Appreciate the people that used to be those strangers. You know I thought of another word that starts with i. Impossible. As in nothing is impossible, not even you being happy with the way your life is leading because we are just the passengers on this train not the conductor. When we remind ourselves who is conducting, we remind ourselves it is not always just about us. It’s about us living this crazy life one day at a time and being the best person we can possibly be.
I have enjoyed the Deadpool 2 trailers and am excited about Cable just as much as anyone. BUT!!! In 1991 the prime of my comic
Collecting, there was a little, huge team that started called X-Force. And let’s just say. I am an X-Force guru. So, when I saw the clip from trailer of the what appeared to be super hero team led by Deadpool, I immediately knew X-Force.
Numbered below is my guesses on who each of the 6. Yes 6 (one standing directly behind Deadpool) on who each character is. Doubt me, I know I’ll have critics..but. I think I am 80-100 percent on target (no pun intended). So. Here. We. Go.
1. Domino – easy.. glasses. Female
2. Zeitgest – yellow mask? Only other close is Chamber.. but my money is on Zeitgest because he was in 1 episode and was killed in same one. That screams Deadpool huh? Would be great
3. Deadpool – duh
4. ShatterStar – Only Double sword X-Force I know
5. G.W. – (George Washington Bridge) I first thought Forge, then moved to Hammer, then Anarchist before coming back to G.W. Hammer however is cyborg and Anarchist was a big joke. My money is on G.W.
6. Fantomex – All you can see behind Deadpool is a character with White pants. Name another X-Force with white pants. Ok ok. Dr. Nemesis… but I’m going Fantomex. Fantomex it is.
So that’s my guesses! I number the screenshot I took below for your reference. Let me know what you think!
Hey gang! After being asked several times about certain comic movies and series. I have studied and came to this list of how to watch every Marvel movie or series and in the right order. If you want to be ready for Infinity War and the battle of Thanos. Get ready by watching each of these in this order. For our Marvel fans! Here we go…
Captain America First Avenger
The Incredible Hulk
Thor the Dark World
Captain America Winter Soldier
Agents of Shield season 1 (ABC)
Guardians Of the Galaxy
Agents of Shield season 2 (ABC)
Agents of Shield season 3 (ABC)
Guardians of the Galaxy 2
Daredevil season 1 (Netflix)
Jessica Jones (Netflix)
Avengers Age of Ultron
Daredevil season 2(Netflix)
Luke Cage (Netflix)
Iron Fist (Netflix)
Agents of Shield season 4 (ABC)
Agent Carter season 1 (ABC)
The Defenders (Netflix)
Agent Carter season 2 (ABC)
Captain America Civil War
Inhumans season 1 (ABC)
Runaways season 1 (Hulu)
The Punisher (Netflix)
Agents of Shield season 5 (ABC)
Now it’s time to get watching!
I saw a homeless person today.
I saw a homeless person at the Pilot gas station. When I pulled up to the pump to get gas, he was sitting straight across from me. I could see him. He couldn’t see me. As I sat there and watched him, I noticed he had a companion with him. A sidekick. A partner. A ride or die. You could tell this was his wasn’t a friend, this was his best friend. The way he looked at him. You could tell. This was something special.
He had a dog. Black and brown and small. Probably smaller than an average dog. But still a dog. He would lean down and pet the dog and every time he touched his little head, the dogs tail would wag. It would wag so hard, it would slap each side of the dogs body every time he would reach down towards him. Right, left, right, left. It slowly became mesmerizing. The mesmerizing motion slowly got me pondering.
Does the dog know his owner is homeless? Does the dog know he could be sleeping on a warm couch inside a nice house if another person would have taken him in? Does the dog know he could be drinking fresh clean water anytime he wanted in a bowl with his name on it? Does the dog know? The question shouldn’t be does the dog know? But how about Does the dog care?
As more people walk by them sitting on the curb, looking, judging, glaring away. It made me sad. It made me see people who didn’t care. Just like that dog didn’t care where he was at, as long as he was with his owner. Right, left, right, left…The dogs tail continued to wag. Not just periodically, but EVERY single time the homeless man would reach down to him.
A car pulls up. A woman gets out, she purposely walks the other way away from them. What were others thinking. No one even said hello or gave a head nod. They all looked away, never wanting to make eye contact. Does the dog care about others judging his owner?
The more I pondered as my gas was pumping, the more I thought about Gods love for us. Does God care that we have a 500,000 home? Does God care we have a 75,000 car? Does God care who we know or what we do? Does God care if we are homeless? I think the answer to all the questions is no. Gods love goes beyond that. God doesn’t judge who we are or our worldly status. God only loves. He loves each of us unconditionally without judging. God always watches over us but most importantly, God reaches down to us.
That man loved that dog. Sitting 20 yards away, you really can’t see it but you can feel it. God loves you , and if you watch other people long enough….you will feel it. When he reaches down. We should wag our tails. Let’s show others God love is hard to explain, but once you feel it. You know it. I challenge you to show others what it feels like. Cast your cares to Jesus And always remember to wag your tail.
Hello..Hello there dark abyss. Hello there endless darkness. I know you want to devour anything that stumbles as I sit. A random fry, a few pieces of copper and one silver, even a long lost hair bow belonging to my daughter. I see you. I know you are down there. If I mute my podcast, I can hear you. I can hear the hopes and dreams of a thousand people all at the same time. What makes you? What do you do and how do you do it. Why do you want to taunt us with that fear. Do you enjoy it? I know you do. People fear you but say nothing about you. People know you but don’t acknowledge you. You don’t even have a name. You are the unknown. But you. Yes you. You know we will meet. We will meet again and again and again. I bet you laugh an evil laugh. I bet your soul is as cold as a touch from Elsa. Phone Rings. I know you giggle. I am not on hands free so I carefully turn the phone around to see who is calling. I answer. With every pause in my conversation I know you are whispering to me. “That’s mine” you say. I pause and listen closer, but you won’t repeat yourself. Your to smooth for that. I continue to talk while you wait. Waiting so patiently. How do you do it. You slip from my mind like you always do. I am now caught up in a conversation about what’s for dinner. But you already know. You know what you are having. You are having my hopes. My dreams. You are having the enjoyment of my sighs my tears. That’s what you wait for. That’s what you need.
“Ok. I will be home in a few minutes” as I end my conversation. You are silent. This is your opportunity. This is the time. I reach to hit end. The chain of events are among us. I cannot stop the force. Mis balance. iPhone 6plus reaching with one finger holding in one hand is too much. Just too much. A slight slip, a rotation that is impossible to be recreated. Trying to keep one hand on wheel while the other bobbles you. I see you in the distance as I try to regain what I have lost. Gravity takes over. I can’t do it. Your laugh becomes louder your breathing deepens with each breath. To you …as you look up its in slow motion. Front screen, back screen, front screen back screen. I got this. No I don’t. Yes I do and now you are gone.
You have used your evil powers once again. There is no way I could do what I just did again. Michael Jordan could not make that shot. You have slipped straight where I didn’t want you to be and now you are out of my sight.
Leaning, reaching, fingers twitching. Stretching. Swerving to shoulder. Buuurrrbbbuurrr the noise sounds as I hit the rivets on the road. I feel something. That’s not you. What is that. A pack of hot mustard? Where did you go. You have won again. I cannot find you. The abyss has won the darkness has covered you. I know you feel alone. But until I stop, move my seat forward and back sometimes requiring an extra light source… I will have to wait. You will have to be alone.
I dislike you abyss. But I will prevail. I will get my iPhone soon. I’m almost home.
Do you think you are alone?
you are wrong
Do you think no one cares who you are?
you are wrong
Do you think you have reached the end?
you are wrong
but wait, I bet you are tired of others telling you that you are wrong all the time aren’t you?
This my friend is the beginning. The beginning of your new life. You are in control of what you do. Drugs? Alcohol? Abusive relationship? None of that can stop you! Set your mind on the goal. The goal of controlling your life and being a positive reflection on others. Are you embarrassed? Guess what….it’s ok! Most people have problems, they just are more fake than you are. Let’s prove them wrong! Let’s show them together that you can get control! You can do this for no one but yourself! People are there to help you. Even if everyone in your family has given up on you, they still love you. Your friends that you have lied to, done wrong and let an addiction come between you, they still love you. They want you to win. I want you to win. So if you think everyone has given up on you…guess what I am here. I am here to help you. Matt Black never turns his back. We should help one another as humans. As Gods children walking in his light we should help one and another. You don’t know me.. You don’t have to. I know people that can help you during any struggle. All new people. People who will not judge you, they just want to help. I will help you get into those rehabilitation centers. I promise I can do that. All you have to do is ask. Ask Matt Black to help you. Let’s prove everyone wrong.
You are somebody to me.
A Friend and a Jacket
They say angels can come in any shape, size, race or gender. I agree with that. I probably have meet one or two in my time, and I hope I made them proud.
There is a local gas station that I frequent a lot for different reasons. I come in contact with all kinds of people there. Friends, family, clerks I know, but today I saw two people that stood out. I saw two people I did not recognize. Two homeless looking men (being completely honest) one white and one black. Both of them seemed so out of place. At first glance, I saw them from a distance, sitting near the front door. My first impression raised the question in my head… what are those two guys doing? Their clothes were dirty, and their jackets seemed old and frail. As i continued to mentally judge them, I saw one attempting to fix his zipper of his coat to zip it up. As I began to walk towards the door, I continued to watch them. The closer I got, the more judgmental I became. Their clothes seemed more worn and I noticed now that one of them had a backpack. A green backpack with a water bottle, and other items that was probably all he had to his name. I began to think of the last homeless person that I had seen at this same gas station. He was intoxicated, rude, and non appreciative. I immediately put these two guys into that category. I was wrong.
I went inside the store, purchased my items and began to leave. As I came out, the two men were still in the same spot, but I noticed something. I noticed their clothes, even though they did not show a name brand, not freshly washed or matching, they were neatly tucked into their pants. I noticed a smile from the black male and his teeth appeared to be freshly brushed. The white gentleman who was working on his jacket zipper was now half way zipped and had gloves on. The other had put a toboggan on and gave me a slight head nod with a polite. “Hello sir”.
I’m not sure what clicked, or what happened next but I stopped and said, How are you? He replied with ” I am blessed to have a coat and a toboggan, it is going to be a cold night”. I smiled and said, yes it is chilly. My curiosity aroused. I was close enough to smell alcohol, but didn’t smell anything. I was close enough to hear his voice, and I knew what he was saying was truthful. He was thankful. I asked the only question that was on my mind “Do I know you from somewhere?”
I asked him this question because he was so familiar to me. His face was so recognizable, and his eyes silently said gave off the feeling of someone saying…hello old friend. After my question, his smile got bigger. He giggled as he said “I get that a lot” I immediately asked if he was from around here and he replied, “my whole life”. By now, his friend had stood up and walked near enough to hear our conversation. I asked them where they were heading and the other said they were going back towards the shelter. I said Shelter? Obvious to them I had said in a manner that sounded like a question, the one I had been speaking with said, “Yep the shelter, my mom kicked me out of the house and I am trying to get on my feet”. He goes on to tell me that he had met the other man the first night at the shelter when someone tried to steal his coat while he slept on a small portable bed. His new friend had prevented the theft from occurring. About the same time, the other man let out a “We have to take care of each other” I then immediately understood why he was proud to have that coat because that was the only one he had and it almost was stolen from him. He continues to tell me he had interviewed for a job nearby and was passing back through going back to the shelter. Passing through I thought, just like we all are.
I introduced my self by name and reached my hand out to shake his hand. He told me his name was Matt and his friend was Roger with a firm handshake then the introduction was over. He talks again about the cold weather and makes the comment, “it is not as cold as I thought”as he begins to walk away. I start to walk back to my car thinking about Matt and Roger. I began to wonder what their story was. Why did they seem so different and why did he give that smile when he responded that he gets that a lot when I asked if I knew him. I shrugged it off and went on with my day.
I think about that interaction that day. I question my premature judgement of who they were before I came out of the store. I question why I saw them so differently walking into the store versus walking out of the story. I remember distinctive qualities about their clothes and backpacks but one thing that is blank to me now is their face. I cannot remember their face. I remember the one I spoke with was a black male, and the other a white male. I remember how familiar he looked but now less than a few days later I can’t remember what he actually looked like.
I think back to our conversation and how I can remember it so vividly and remember thinking how thankful he was for his friend and his coat. He had probably been looked down on before. He had probably been laughed at, ridiculed, made fun of and more. I am glad I caught my judgmental actions before I left. I am glad I cleared my negative thoughts and learned a valuable lesson that I want to share with you.
Sometimes we forget that everyone doesn’t have it as good as we do. We have jobs, stable relationships, supportive spouses, roofs over our heads and healthy kids. We over eat and leave food on our plates, judge others that are not like us and do this why we are angry over trivial meaningless things. We don’t know what storms others have been through. We don’t know the paths they have taken, or do we realize how quick we could be on those same paths.
The experience reminded me of Gods love. Who were those two men? Will I see them again? I don’t know, but I do realize …No matter how big you are, how small you are, no matter if you make a ton of money, or struggle to pay the bills …just be thankful. Thankful not to be so judgmental. Be thankful for what you have. Be thankful to have a family that loves you. Be thankful for the roof over your head. Be thankful for the meals you eat. Be thankful for your health. Be thankful for being able to live your life with freedom.
And most importantly be thankful for a friend and a jacket, someday that may be all you have…
Who’s life will you touch today?
Found this article, and I agree with a lot. Jury still out on what power I would Choose…
what do you think?
I’m calling this one a great app for you apple and IOS users. You will have to drop .99 cents on it but I promise if you have ever had any contact/address book issues, that 99 cents is worth it! This app will scan all your contacts and pull up problem entry’s. such as duplicates, single names, multiple numbers! Takes just a second to analyze and gives u options of what to do with problems! If you have multiple I devices with iCloud and contact share, this may be nice to have if you have any problems
This weeks app of the week is a little known, ok not really little…but it’s sounded good ..note taking app that is a free download called Evernote. A lot of you May be familiar with note taking apps like Springpad where you can create folders and sub folders for your notes, but Evernote takes home the prize. Over the years I always used Springpad and was happy with it, until I tried Evernote for the first time. The smooth multi platform app makes for a very cool experience.
Evernote is available for all mobile operating systems as well as a downloadable client for your desktop or laptop. A cool feature for your PC is the option to save web pages you are browsing into Evernote with one click. Evernote also has an email feature where you can forward or send an email and tell it to put it inside whatever folder you wish. You can also mark notes with #hashags for easy searches later!
Evernote is free, so what are you waiting for!